Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Who I am, Why I’m here

      
DISCLAIMER:  I wrote this this two years ago, during my sophomore year in college. However, I feel it is a fairly good introduction. Thanks to Robert Spirko for challenging me in that class!

              I am an incandescent light bulb in room full of flashlights. That is, one of many but unique. Old fashioned–in some ways; however, I would say that I was raised in a home that respected the past. I am the kind of person that if you give me free roam as to who I am I may just say I am Sam. In truth, I am Paul Anthony Troy, Son of Phillip and Delores; brother to Justin, John, Mark, and Mary. I am who? Who am I? These questions are not something I can just touch on in a paper, I can and shall attempt to give you some miniscule details of my existence, but in the end it will end up random and spontaneous.
            I can honestly say that my mind does wander and I wonder what Wanda would wish to wake a wonderful day come upon her. I am a lot of things; good and bad, happy and sad, glad I have, and curiously made. I am the kind of person that likes limitations, but then tries to break them. I prefer lists over schedules as I can work at my own pace to get things done. I am extremely outgoing and friendly towards mankind. I have had a proud beginning and in contrast a humble upbringing that showcased the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Through that contrast I have developed an open mind, desire for equality, habit of inclusion, and pursuit of total respect.
            In terms of academics, I am currently a sophomore at the University of Tennessee at Knoxville. I enrolled last fall at the school many call ‘Rocky Top’ and haven’t looked back since I made that decision. My freshman year was a blast. I surrounded myself with tremendous people and got involved in so many life-changing organizations and activities. Last year, I took advantage of multiple opportunities as they came along and have grown so much as a human being. Being a college student has its ups and downs as well; but I can say with sincerity that I would not trade it for anything. I am majoring in History and plan on attaining a master’s degree in education. I want to be a teacher in the future. I have had this dream and plan for over eight years and am almost positive it is what will come to be.
            I am a leader, or try to be, to anyone that needs help or guidance. In high school I was valedictorian and Class President. Those titles do not make me, but I earned them nonetheless.  My father taught me the importance of a name. A name could be one of a family, one of a university, or one of a belief. In any situation I represent my name with dignity and diligence. What’s in a name? Shakespeare has a great thought, but I am one who wants you to come up with your own definition. I am analytical and nerdy. At times I can tell that I am interested in things that many do not like, but I am not afraid to stand up for what I believe. I am tired of writing who I am, I feel haughty and arrogant, two things I try not to represent.
             I am here for many reasons. I am in this class because I like freedom of expression and creative progression. Poetry is something that has always baffled me and I yearn to learn more about the topic. Typically I and we are here because we go to college, need to take a class, or want to share ideas and opinions.  I am a global citizen and agent for diversity. We are on this terrestrial ball for many reasons. It is not my place to tell you why you are here or what to do. Personally, I am not always here, or there, or anywhere. Steadfast at hand, I do always have an interest in learning. I push myself to the limit and try to act as a sponge to anything interesting.
            Here is a place that I want to be; writing, expressing, creating, and cringing. Maybe we are here on this earth to experience these feelings or exert some kind of influence. Who knows? Who cares? I just want everyone who knows me to have a good recollection of me, to be better than they were before, and to love all mankind. In the grand scheme, I am here to attain a good grade in this class, to earn my stripes, and to learn from a well-respected professor. I will work hard to make sure that I am there for the right reasons and that my classmates get the best possible outcome from this class. I am here to be a body in a classroom and a mind that acquires information. I want to be the best I can be in all that I do and this is no exception.
             The reasons that I am here are even less concrete and government issued. I am a red-blooded American man who knows his blood is actually blue. I honestly don’t know why I wrote this paper, I feel as though I did not do the assignment correctly and I am afraid that I will not succeed. I am happy that I am here and that I am who I am. That, to me, is all that matters and is what keeps me going every day. At the end of the day sun goes down creatures of the night arise. I am a light bulb in a room full of flashlights. Turn me on and I will shine.

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